Tuesday, January 05, 2010

playing it safe or taking a chance on love?

Grace is a risky thing. It really is. So is love, forgiveness, trust,and freedom.
And yet everyday He puts his heart out there...for me. For you. And allows us to choose.

For two whole years Father wrecked me with the revelation of what good news we have been given. It delighted me and made me furious.
I was made for adventure. I was made to love...extravegantly...abundantly.
I was made to live on the edge...to stand out...to be a "light" where it is dark.

But my heart was really hurt and really scared. I needed my protective shell...the cocoon that hid me and kept me safe.

And in the midst of the barriers and the walls your transforming grace left me all the more fragile....but desperate to be free....to fly. Father, you are shifting something in me and its rocking my world.

So here I am. Ready to discover who I am. Ready to take your hand.


sparrow girl said...

This really resonated with me! I don't know if it's exactly what you're saying, but for me, I am excited and want to share grace and be bold, but at the same time I hate rejection and just want to keep myself safe and anonymous. Yet I feel so compelled to share something so wonderful..and it just has to come out, no matter what people say...people need so desperately to know they're loved and graced by God...and yet we know the real possibility is that they may reject both the message and us...yet love pours out for we just can't seem to help sharing it!

Is that some of what you mean? That's just my feelings, but I wanted you to know what you said really spoke to me..

Love to you from Sparrow!

sparrow girl said...

Reading your post again I think you are speaking of taking the risk to trust Him, letting go..that is also something that resonates..

lydia said...

Love you girl!!! This post was beautiful and you inspired me to write a post..............

He is saying 'Take a chance on me'..........

silent wings said...

Sparrow, absolutely it is BOTH! As a little girl when I first gave my heart to Jesus I was always telling people about how amazing he is...and I loved people deeply. Religion, deep wounds and sin really snuffed out the light and life and freedom to love that I remember from long ago....my heart closed up.

I LOVE how He frees us...bit by bit from glory to glory. And I am loving that He does it HIS way without any striving on my part. It is so good to know we are simply carriers of His presence and we GET to love people because it is our nature to do so.....as you said, we can't help it! :)

Lydia...that's it! He IS saying take a chance on me. :) Haha

sparrow girl said...

We GET to love people - I love that! Not we HAVE to love people (law) but we GET to (grace, natural desire of the new nature)...I love that thought!